“Kalau aku potong rambut, aku pengin potong rambut for
a good cause.”
Tidak secanggung itu, tapi
kurang lebih seperti inilah kalimat yang terucap saat saya dan Mama
mengobrol di teras loteng rumah malam itu. Kalimat ini akhirnya
menjadi sebuah rencana yang dijalankan beberapa minggu hingga bulan
Sejak akhir Maret 2020,
kantor saya mulai memberlakukan Work From Home (WFH) dengan sistem
bergantian. Lalu escalated pretty quick hingga menjadi full
WFH pada pertengahan April hingga saat ini (November 2020). Ya,
selama itulah saya tidak ke kantor, kecuali untuk beberapa “keperluan
penting” (baca: saat bosan di rumah), yang tentunya dilakukan di
masa PSBB transisi. Selama di rumah, saya membiarkan rambut yang
sudah cukup panjang ini semakin bertumbuh.
berturut-turut saya tidak memedulikan seberapa panjang rambut ini
nantinya. Mengingat saya sudah tak keluar rumah hampir sama sekali,
saya mulai mengurangi jatah keramas. Ya, tentu saja, kalau sekali
keramas bisa memakan waktu 1 hingga 1,5 jam dan rambut saya tidak
cepat kotor pula, untuk apa saya sering keramas? Toh selain rambut
cepat kering, sampo dan kondisioner akan lebih cepat habis, plus
boros air, hehehe.
Tapi percayalah, sama
seperti beberapa dari kalian, saya juga sempat menonton video
tutorial potong rambut panjang ber-layer. Terlihat mudah dan
hasilnya memang cantik. But well, you know the truth,
praktiknya tidak akan semudah itu. Untuk mengepang rambut sendiri
saja saya sering menyerah karena pegal dan tidak rapi, apalagi untuk
Akhirnya, saya sering
merasa rambut ini sangat panjang setiap selesai keramas. Meskipun,
rambut hitam, lebat, dan panjang sudah menjadi identitas saya sejak
kecil dan saya memang suka dengan gaya ini. Katanya, orang akan
terlihat lebih kurus kalau rambutnya panjang, entahlah. Tapi yang
saya tau, saya akan merasa lebih insecure jika mempunyai
rambut pendek, karena saya takut rambut ini akan terlihat mekar
Namun akhirnya percakapan itu terjadi, plus teman saya low key menantang saya untuk memotong rambut hingga pendek. Sekitar pertengahan Oktober, saya mulai googling soal donasi rambut. Believe it or not, saya bahkan membaca artikel WikiHow tentang cara mendonasikan rambut. Iya, ada tuh artikelnya, hasil terjemahan pula!
Di akhir Oktober, saya mendapat jatah libur 5 hari berturut-turut, how lovely! Saya pikir, inilah waktunya untuk melakukan berbagai kegiatan yang selama ini tidak saya lakukan, misalnya menyulam. Yap, kegiatan random ini muncul awal Oktober lalu, akibat terlalu bosan di rumah.
Selain menyulam, saya
juga akhirnya menemukan Yayasan Kanker Indonesia (YKI) untuk menjadi
penerima “mahkota” ini. Di waktu senggang, saya mengambil waktu
sejenak untuk meyakinkan diri sendiri, membulatkan tekad untuk
memotong rambut dan mendonasikan rambut ini.
“Minimal 25 cm,” persyaratannya, “Rambut sehat dan tidak dicat, dalam kondisi bersih dan kering, serta diikat menjadi dua ekor kuda. Guntingan rambut dimasukkan ke dalam zip lock dan dikirim ke Yayasan Kanker Indonesia, Jalan Dr. GSSJ Ratulangi no. 35, RT.2/RW.3, Gondangdia, Menteng, Jakarta Pusat.” Namun, saat ini sepertinya donasi rambut sedang ditutup.
Wah, 25 cm, pikir saya. Lalu saya meminta Mama untuk mengukur panjang rambut dan ternyata sudah lebih dari 30 cm dari ujung rambut hingga ke bawah bahu. Namun, saya memutuskan untuk memotong rambut hingga di atas bahu, just to challenge myself. Akhirnya, saya memutuskan untuk memotong rambut di hari terakhir liburan, yakni 1 November, hari pertama bulan lahir saya.
Alasannya simpel, saya hanya ingin pemotongan rambut ini menjadi ‘hadiah’ from me to me untuk ulang tahun saya tahun ini. Sejak beberapa tahun lalu, sudah menjadi kebiasaan saya untuk menghadiahi diri sendiri, karena saya tidak ingin terlalu menggantungkan kebahagiaan saya sendiri pada orang lain. Lagipula, you shouldn’t depend your happiness on someone else, right?
The Gift’s Prep
Hari yang dinantikan pun tiba. Sejujurnya, saya tak lagi merasa sedih karena harus kehilangan rambut panjang ini, mengingat banyak orang yang terpaksa kehilangan rambut not under their concern. Saya malah merasa antusias jika bisa berbagi kebahagiaan melalui apa yang saya miliki. Bersama Mama, kami mengunjungi salon yang memotong rambut saya pertama kali saat kecil, Salon Bang Andi.
“Nih potong segini
aja, Bang Andi,” ujar Mama.
“Iya gapapa pendekin
aja, Om. Ntar modelnya kayak gini, ya,” ucap saya sembari
menyodorkan hasil potongan rambut pendek untuk rambut tebal yang
sudah saya cari sejak awal liburan.
Lalu Bang Andi was like “Oh okay, let’s do it.”
*kress* *kress* *kress*
Tanpa basa basi, seikat rambut sebelah kiri saya sudah terpotong dan segera disusul oleh seikat rambut sebelah kanan. “Nih dia rambutnya,” Mama menyodorkan dua ikat rambut saya. Tapi, entah kenapa saya merasa geli saat memegang rambut itu setelah dipotong, it feels strange to hold your long hair hanging apart from your head, you know.
Usai digunting rapi, keramas hingga dikeringkan, ternyata saya menyukai gaya rambut baru ini. It fits me well, meskipun saya merasa cukup insecure karena saya bisa merasakan angin mengembus leher belakang saya dan tidak ada rambut yang menghalanginya lagi. Tidak sedih, hanya perlu waktu untuk adaptasi.
Beberapa hari berlalu hingga akhirnya saya berkesempatan untuk memotret rambut setelah dipotong, usai membuat dokumentasi sebelum memotong rambut beberapa minggu lalu. Tak lupa, saya juga foto bersama rambut yang sudah dipotong. What do you think?
Final Touch: Putting a Ribbon
Berbagai hal saya alami
selama adaptasi rambut baru, seperti sulitnya mengikat rambut saat
hendak mandi, rambut yang terasa ringan saat tertiup angin, terasa
lebih lepek meski hanya belum keramas selama beberapa hari, bahkan
saya terkadang menggeleng-gelengkan kepala di depan cermin, di mobil,
atau saat bekerja (di rumah) karena rambut ini terasa menggemaskan
bagi saya. Plus, saya suka rambut yang terlihat bagus meski
Akhirnya, rambut saya memang terlihat agak lebar karena tebal dan terlihat seperti singa, tapi bukan dalam konteks negatif seperti yang saya takutkan. Saya senang karena I can finally give this crown to another princes/princesses. Pun, saya merasa lebih percaya diri karena ‘singa’ ini akhirnya brave enough to show her true self. Well, meskipun secara teknis singa betina tidak memiliki rambut lebar, but you know, it’s obviously a metaphor!
Kalau kata Novo Amor, “Now I feel like I’m finally me!“
In summer 2018, ‘Birthplace’ was his first song that I heard and I was like, “Damn, I love this voice.” After that, I loved ‘Terraform’, his other single which lyrics I still don’t understand until now, and the series of loving all his works started then. Around a week ago, on September 3rd, Ali Lacey, better known as ‘Novo Amor’, released his new single, ‘If We’re Being Honest’ that turned out being my magical song.
I used to keep Novo Amor’s songs as my own secret playlist, like ‘this music is mine’. You’ll be too lucky to find my Spotify account and see how many playlists I put his songs into. To be honest, whether you’re too close to me or too strange to me, I’m not gonna share Novo Amor to you. Also, I’d never think to try to figure out the musician’s personal life though, because I didn’t wanna be so subjective since his music has been great already. But this suddenly changed when Novo Amor released his new single, ‘If We’re Being Honest’, the magical song that leads me to write this story.
I still can’t get over it so you might
find some excessive fangirling responds I write here. It all started
in one morning that I thought will be as boring as the past weeks,
where I get my mood so fucked up, but apparently this song changed my
entire boring day (even weeks!) into something lighter. I felt like
this song helped me carry up half of the weigh I’ve been lifting.
September 3rd: Release Day of “If We’re Being Honest” by Novo Amor
“Newest hit from Novo Amor is now on J**x. Listen to If We’re Being Honest right now!” said this one music app I rarely use, who keeps asking me to use it again, but then I only responded with saying “What…the…heck…”. Days before, I thought Novo Amor released a new song called ‘Shape and Patterns’, but that was just a short video about his new upcoming collaborative album, “Cannot Be, Whatsoever”.
Not letting myself forget this update, I googled this new song, and I found “Novo Amor – If We’re Being Honest (Lyrics)” by this channel “Penguin Music” was uploaded 3 hours ago in YouTube. I was like “Yum, here we go!” then I clicked play. Turns out, the music video is premiered in the next 9 hours. I clicked “Remind me” and yet I didn’t have the heart to close the YouTube tab. I told myself that this is going to be my reward after I do my work today, so let me do my best. (But I keep coming back to the YouTube tab to see the remaining time, LoL!)
Unlike his previously released songs (Halloween, Decimal, and Opaline), this is the kind of song I’m going to love and put it in my playlists, most likely would be in my “On Repeat” playlist. Yes, I’m madly in love this song! This is the kind of song that gets me, just like “From Gold” and “Carry You”. I deeply in love with the drums part so much, it flies me, you know. You’ll only get this when you hear them.
After a dozen of replays while I’m working, I decided I wanted to share this magical experience I’m having as an impromptu review. Let’s start with an opening, I thought. Then I asked myself, “What was his name again?” “Oh okay,” after I googled. “Damn, he had an interview with CreativeDisc, how come I’d never figure this out?!” I mumbled, but then I read the transcript to get some more insights.
Cut to the chase, it was 15 minutes before 10 pm, I sent a reassuring chat whether everyone’s having their day made after listening to this song, just like the one I had. Right after I sent my chat, the person we’ve been waiting for has come, as seen in the image below.
Not so long after, I asked a question about him coming back to Jakarta and play a show. Guess what? He replied!
I squealed in happiness of getting my first response from him (the feeling stays until now because I find myself smiling at 3:45 am while I’m writing this blog). After replaying the music video and showing it to my Mom, I finished, then submitted the article. It came up the next day and you can read it in Bahasa Indonesia here:
I thought it’ll be just that, I submitted the article, the article is posted, I promoted the article, done. But apparently, after I shared my article in Twitter, Ali himself gave it a like and it’s messing with my serotonin in a good way. Yep, that made my day again because at the end, the article reached the website’s most popular posts!
I was still thinking it’s all enough. I got 2 of my tweets liked by Ali in Twitter, the article’s exposure is getting better, while I keep streaming ‘If We’re Being Honest’ over and over again. Until this one midday where CreativeDisc asked me about interviewing Ali, it goes like,
“Tristin, if you get a chance to interview Novo (Ali), do you want to? Can we do it by Zoom? Haha”
Then I almost got choked and having this butterflies in my stomach while reading this deadly damage in a form of words. I didn’t reply it immediately and waited like 2 minutes while digesting this information. I said I’d never do any interviews with any musician using English language yet, AND BY ANY OTHER CHANCES WHY HIM. I believe I’ll got my star-struck syndrome relapsed. But blah blah blah and eventually I said “So as not to regret it in the future, I’ll agree to it first”.
The request to interview Ali was sent to Novo Amor’s management and all I did was preparing my mentality, wondering what should I ask, and knowing that I need to do a lot of research since I’d never read anything about him online and ONLY listened to his songs in the past two years. The news has arrived, we’ll do the interview on Monday at 7 p.m. WIB. Damn, THIS Monday? And I only got two fcking days to prepare? But challenge accepted.
September 5th to 6th: Preparation
Obviously, I did as much research as I could to figure out who is he and how’s he like. Armed with my moderate skill at interviewing, I made a list of 10s questions and did some rehearsals. By ‘rehearsals’ I mean I literally recorded myself in a Zoom meeting and watch the preview. Man, I couldn’t even imagine myself talking to the guy who sang all the songs I’ve been singing in the bathroom, in my bedroom, in the office, even on the ride when I’m alone.
I didn’t even think about reaching him out like how I reached Greyson Chance out because I thought that he only wants us to listen to his music and interpret it on our own. And through his interviews I researched, it was right. He likes his songs meaning remain mysterious so we can understand them ourselves. For me, I only need to feel it to understand the song in a way I can’t even explain it to myself. I could cry, smile, being like a person who’s in love with her life, and that could come only from the same song.
September 7th: The D-Day
I spent my morning just like usual,
working. But I feel something’s off, like something’s holding me and
it ruined my mood (again). I’m feeling nervous, but the playlist I
used to listened to is the reason why I feel this. I tried so hard
not to care about this feeling, but my body can’t lie.
It was 2 p.m. when I told my Mom, “OMG,
Mom, it’s less than 6 hours left from the interview,” and she was
like, “Ugh, you’re overreacting.” You know how Asian moms would
act. Less than two hours later, I got this butterfly in my stomach
turned into some kind of monsters, I felt my stomach churned,
followed by my heart beating fast, excessively sweating, and
shortness of breath. After, like, four times going back and forth to
the restroom to had some poopoo, I thought I wanted to take a
sick leave, but cancelled it bcs the office hours is nearly over.
I calmed myself down after reading an article about how to stop panic and anxiety attack then took a deep breath and knowing that I shouldn’t let my heart beats fast or I’ll instantly “wake up” the monsters again. Remembering this, although it’s almost 5 in the morning when I write this, I can’t help myself not to giggle because how weird my body was. My Mom and Dad seemed worry about me but I told them it’s okay, Dad offered me a herbal drink and I drank it to suggest my brain to feel better.
It’s finally 7 p.m., I already took a bath and changed to my black pyjama T-shirt. I’ve prepared my working room, did some makeup so I wouldn’t look too pale, and set a camera to record how did the interview look like from behind my back. It was kinda cute, though, getting this much effort just to do a 30-minute video call with the guy I barely know whose songs I love so much.
Ali is apparently a nice guy, though, he entered the zoom meeting room on time and was really chill and friendly throughout the interview. You can see this interview I attach below, but what you might not know is that I still got around more 10 minutes to talk to him but I was too nervous when he asked me to ask him my personal questions. I only asked him my two other spare questions while actually there’s this one fun question I should’ve ask, but I didn’t.
“Hmm, mayybee that’s all, I guess,” I said very doubtedly, then my senior interviewer jumped in and joined the conversation to say thanks and said that I was fangirling over him these past days, which frankly right. The more you get to know your favorite musician, the deeper you love them because you both have the same taste in music, am I right? He said “That’s cute,” right before I cut and said panicly that I thanked him for what he did and told him to never stop making music.
September 8th: Songs Recommendation
As you can see in the interview, I said I’m going to look for the songs Ali into. Yeah, that wasn’t just a chit-chat question. I listened to the songs, and for all the pressure I had while listening to Bloom by Great Grandpa for the first time, I cried. And the other one is Labrador by Hailaker, a band Ed Tullett made with Jemima Coulter, Ali was kinda involved in the process of making their album and he said he liked Labrador.
September 9th: Playlist
The next day, I tweeted to Ali that I listened to the songs above and I asked for more songs recommendation since I love the first two he told me. Since I kept Novo Amor as a music I ‘own’, it’s been years since the last time I trade playlists and it’s even longer since I listened to a playlist that ‘clicked’ with me. I actually don’t really believe that people can share the same taste in music, until this one.
Ali replied my tweet with an entire playlist he made in his another Spotify account. Among those musician I know, I found a song that has been my favorite since the end of 2018, Smoke Signals by Phoebe Bridgers, whose album (Stranger in the Alps) is in my most played album in 2019!
Songs by songs are being played and I was like, “Oh. My. Goodness. I’d never feel so ‘clicked’ with a playlist recommended by other human being!” And I was literally squealing and crying tears of happiness. To Ali, if you ever read this, I think it’ll be great if we can spend some more time talking, please don’t get tired of my questions, and THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALWAYS MAKING MY DAY!!!
Days after the interview: The ‘Research’ Wouldn’t Stop
After talking to him on the interview, knowing him a little bit through our conversations (that I listened again to write the summary article), and his interactions in his media socials, IDK why I get the impression that he’s actually funny and really enjoyable to talk with, but some of his followers think he’s a rigid person, it’s weird but cute.
Anyway, another “‘research’ that would’t stop” happened while I was doing research for this article. So apparently, in an interview, Ali stated that ‘Stranger in the Alps’ by Phoebe Bridgers is the last great record he recently heard in around July 2018, which I figured out around five months after that.
The other one I found is apparently, Novo Amor’s ‘Welcome to the Jungle’ is a rearranged version of Guns n’ Roses’s ‘Welcome to the Jungle’, which also embarrassed me because I’d never realise that until I read the lyrics. This song was once used for an AXE/Lynx Black ads. HAHA, now you know how lack the information I knew about Novo Amor’s discography.
From now on, I think I’ll try to stay connected to the information Ali shared to his fans, because apparently that’s an important thing for me to know the musician whose songs I love so much. Thanks to Novo Amor’s ‘If We’re Being Honest’, I actually couldn’t feel more thankful for this fun experience I was having. If you still have some time, please take a look at the summary article I wrote by clicking this image below:
Well, as you can see, I wrote this 2K words article to share my story about that four magical days I’ve had with Novo Amor after If We’re Being Honest. Now I felt like I was just coming out through this article, because I used to keep Novo Amor as my own secret playlist until ‘If We’re Being Honest’. Since you guys know the story already, the situation is now changed. But, as long as this way of exposing my playlist could help me support him, I’m gonna do it. So, click here to pre-order ‘Cannot Be, Whatsoever’.
It’s been 7 a.m already. Good morning and I need to sleep, I think this’ll end here for a while. Bye!
“Guess I’ll never watch Black Panther with the same feeling again,”
was the thing came out in my thought when i heard about Chadwick Boseman’s death. It’s been a long time since the last time I write a blog. But let me express my feelings here and deal with this thoughts.
It was Saturday morning, my brother woke me up and with his kinda-stammering weak voice he said “Ce (a Chinese call for “Sister”), I got a bad news,” and with a little panic voice I asked him “What?”
“Chadwick Boseman is dead.”
Then with my trembling low voice,
totally awake, I said “Damn… seriously? Why? Are you sure?”
“What cancer? Are you sure he’s
dead?” Because I really have got no idea he had cancer.
“IDK, Google it.”
I took a deep breath and I was like “f*************ck,” while closing my eyes again, trying to digest the news I just heard, while inside, I feel my heart is beating faster, I feel my body shaking, and my tears, unknowingly, was streaming along my face that morning. Doubtfully, I know I’ll know the news, sooner or later, so I picked up my phone and read the news.
On that entire day, I–like for almost every second, was stunned. Still trying to accept the reality and figuring out how to respond in a normal way. I got up from the bed and told my Mom that T’Challa (she knows him as this character), is dead. “Yeah, the actor who played T’Challa,” I clarified. And my Mom was like having that little loss as well, because I keep talking about Black Panther to her while I did my research last year.
It wasn’t a terrific thesis I made, but I truly enjoyed doing the research, working it in every words, watching the movie again and again, collecting facts that leads me to knowing that T’Challa would marry Storm from X-Men. I told my Mom about this as well, maybe she even got tired hearing me saying the lines I nailed in my head from some scenes again and again, but she mourned anyway.
Chad’s character was THAT strong. I mean, he doesn’t even know me, but i feel this much sadness when he’s gone. It felt like a King that everyone loved in an imaginary country I once lived, is now dead. I am now still overly sensitive seeing eulogies from the people who knows him personally.
Until I write this, my heart is still
broken. At this very point, I don’t care if I’m being too excessive,
this is how I deal with the sadness. I tried to ignore this fact of
Chad’s death because it shouldn’t really matter to me, but since I
just saw a very short scene in Black Panther when T’Challa debated
with Killmonger in a railway, I felt like my heart was just beaten
again, realizing the fact that this man has been gone. Forever.
Then again, people die everyday, it’s only a matter of who. So why don’t we cherish this short time we have before they (or we) leave?
Anyway, enkosi kakhulu, Kumkani. Thank you for this empathy you left me feeling. May you rest in power forever with your ancestors. *crossing fists upon my heart*
I have to admit, for almost these 4 years studying as a journalist, this probably my most favorite busy schedule I could ever wish. Not just meeting the unrealperson as my Mom said, but also got some supports from my parents. Yep, they went to Greyson’s hotel to lend me the camera bcs sadly I can’t bring it to the venue for all reasons, and they waited there for like 5 hours bcs I can’t give them the exact time schedule. 🙁
Let’s go to the D-Day. I went alone by an ojek to the venue, meeting new friends, sharing about how much efforts we’ve made for Greyson, and those fangirling stuffs, like almost every fangirls do. I gathered up with the meet and greet team which consists of 10 fans, including me. I’m happy to know that these people aren’t as crazy as most fangirls I imagined, they were awesome and so cool to each other and I’m not gonna lie, some of them seems fun to be friend with.
As usual, some dramas happened, but eventually we made it there to the not-so-crowded-venue with Greyson standing on the stage, preparing for his final rehearsal. I thought we were gonna see him doing the sound check, but nah. Greyson came down from the stage to see us and to be very honest, I can tell he’s a very kind person from the way he looked at these strangers who said were his fans, to the 10 of us.
As I always wished to see, he was so fcking nice to us all, unlike how wild he looked like on stage, he’s still that soft, kind, warm kid from Oklahoma that I’d known even before I saw him in person. Despite of all stories he shared, including the ones where he got kicked out from his labels (yeah, labels), he doesn’t change a bit, just taller and more hairy.
Let’s get to my point of view seeing him in person, I’ll make this as short as I could. “Okay, who’s next?” he asked. “Me,” with my awkward smile as I spoke shyly. I gave him 2 things, a bracelet I finished outside the venue a few minutes ago and a letter that I turned into word puzzle. You can watch it here:
He asked my name, I put the bracelet into his left arm, gave the letter to him and he said “cool,” “awesome,” “badass,” etc. sounds like it’s all his appreciation template, but I don’t care bcs I, too much, love the words he said. I said hi to Alex, his manager, and Greyson said Alex got his own fans in Philippines. I also told Greyson about me noticing the ring he always wear since years ago.
Yep, this too-detailed fangirl noticed that ring, I like that ring and I kinda know the story, but I don’t get why the reason he’s still wearing that ring until he told us that day. Well, I even wore a ring on the same finger so I can tell everyone I’m engaged with Greyson, that’s pretty embarrassing for a grown up girl like me, but on a second thought, this is one of the things that keep me young, isn’t it? 😛
The meet and greet has done, I redeemed my ticket, and go to Greyson’s hotel for the interview. TBH I’ve never met the other interviewer before as this was my first time doing an interview with this media. I met the owner and a reporter, they were also fun to be friend with though, what a happy day to spend! We waited for like 15-30 mins before get to prepare for the interview. Each media got 5 mins and one team consists of 2-3 media, I got 2.
I can see Alex and the other team member was chilling at the bar, and then the star has finally entered the hall. I was like wow he changed his outfit, maybe he’d took a shower, with that white shirt and brown jacket, he greeted us, the interviewers, he shook my hand and said “What a cool t-shirt. Wait, have we met earlier?” I replied, “Yeah, you remembered me?” But TBH my brain was like yes dummy, you hugged me twice several hours ago.
It’s eventually our turn, we actually got 10 minutes, but then Greyson said “Can we get 15 on this?” Wonderful! Fifteen minutes straight watching Greyson’s interview, live! In case you wonder what did I do, I wrote some base questions asked by Creative Disc, and I was there only to record the interview, so I got some time to just look at him and standing by behind the camera, you can watch it here. After doing an interview, he took some photos with the interviewers, including me ofc!
Before we took another photo together, he asked, “So, you’re a fan, but also a reporter?” and I was like, yes my king, I did this all to you. Sadly, he told me he couldn’t wear the bracelet I gave him bcs he afraid it’ll distract his piano playing, but he promised me he kept it in his luggage. It’s okay darling, I’ve swallowed all your promise, like, since forever ago.
Not so long after, he signed 10 albums and my notebook from a fan-meeting event 4 years ago called “Rocking the Planet X,” he asked my name with additional call, “darling.” I kinda freeze and didn’t take any good picture, nor video of him signing my notebook, but at least he spelled my name right. No, I spelled it, he wrote it down with a message “To Tristin, xx MOVE FORWARD.”
The moment has passed, but unlike what usually happened in some of my half-conscious dreams, this time I brought some real things to keep, like the hugs, album and notebook signs, photos, videos, and four new friends that now I could share my life with, yep, it’s you Marsya, Gabby, Nova, and Sherly. I hate to say this writing exceeds my words target. So I’ll just sums up that the concert was awesome, I smh several times, remembering how’d he act when he’s not on stage, compared with his stage persona, man, he’s the star! I knew it since the first time I heard him singing Football in 2013.
I think that’s all I’ve got. What do I expect from everyone who read this? Well guys, take your time on a tour to my blog. Thank you for giving a damn to my fangirling story, your precious time, eyes, and brain is fully appreciated. Maybe I’ll continue writing reviews for film after this. Adios por ahora!
“When he hugged me with that broad shoulders, it felt like all the efforts, the dreams, the make believes, and all the time it took to get me here, was all paid.”
My Mom was never believe me and she said to me once, “Find a real person to be loved, you can’t love someone’s unreal.” Those words hit me like a giant stone falling onto my body. Since then, she always ignores, like, almost everything about Greyson.
I feel like this topic is kinda outdated, but here it is, the D-day, when I met the person I always thought was impossible to meet.
It was May 10th, when my friend told me about Greyson is going to throw a concert in Jakarta. I told him I don’t believe that and I’ve been having trust issues about Greyson’s concert in Jakarta. I totally don’t care, until I figured out myself from a trusted source.
I know that this time, I’ll see this guy performing right in front of my eyes. At that very moment, I was like “💩💩💩, how can I get the ticket? Should I kill someone or infiltrate the promoter crews?” Not even a single day passed that I’m not thinking about getting the concert ticket. I mean, beside Greyson, this is going to be my first time attending a concert!
Time goes by until the ticket purchasing day, where everyone was rushed to get the chance getting the ticket, while I woke up and opened the website like 40 mins after. My heart was beating so much faster, even faster than when I was on my thesis defence. At the end, I got the Presale 1 ticket, not really bad though. The only bad thing was, there’s no VIP ticket in Indonesia, sucks.
The story doesn’t skip from there. While I was doing my final thesis, I was also thinking about how can I get the chance to meet him in person. I wanna break my Mom’s statement that says I will never see Greyson in person.
I kept thinking to look for a job as an interviewer, and I remembered my friend, who knows a music media, and worked as their freelance reporter once. Long story short, I gotta write for the media and let them decide whether I’m qualified enough for the job. I accept the challenge, and I keep reminding myself that I shouldn’t put a high expectations on it.
Several weeks later, the media owner texted me and told me that the media (Creative Disc) is doing a giveaway. TBH, my too-careless-self thought it was a concert ticket giveaway, I didn’t notice the message at the first place. Turns out it was a meet and greet ticket give away, holy f*ck, what’s happening on this earth, why’s everything coming right in time, like the universe is trying to get me to his arms. I really wanted to hug this skinny bear I was always dreaming of.
Voila, it wasn’t so hard for me to do the challenge, as you can see on this post. It was like an interview to me, like asking me how much I know the company. Man, I even know the office security’s name.
Since I was a kid, I could never really do cheating, except when it comes to playing GTA, that’s the only, only exception. So I was just waiting, keeping myself calm, not thinking too much about it, and not trying to join the other giveaway bcs I don’t really wanna do those things they ask. I kept my distance from the media’s owner bcs unlike those bootlickers, I want to make it as fair as it could be.
The announcement day has come and as some of you might wish, I won the meet and greet ticket! Suck that bithc! Sorry Greyson taught me that on the interview session, he also taught me to say sorry after saying harsh words. Peace out.
Hell yeah, so I won the ticket and you could never feel how “winning” I was when I told my mom about it. She was like, “Believe it or not, I’m giving up on this argument. Now I’m on your side.” Yes, she was on my side and you’ll see it on the Part 2 post.
The happiness didn’t stop there. Along those months of waiting, I wrote some articles for the media, including Portraits album review. You can tell me when you find the article, I’d be happy to discuss it with you. And yep, I passed the challenge.
Another long story short, the D-day has come, I was hired to record an interview with Greyson with my own camera, and I’ll proudly share my schedule that would be:
It’s been over a year since the last time I write for myself and post something new here. Well, you know, transitioning into a graduated student isn’t that simple. Now I think I started to know what am I going to do for the weekends and I hope there’ll be no “too late” for old movie reviews, nor for old events or moments I’ve had. This is my own personal blog, anyway. That’s it for now, you can explore my other writing from after or before this post, and…
Usai mendengar kabar putusnya pasangan rilesyensyip gols yang terkenal di yutup itu, tim HPNG mau ikutan bikin artikel tentang goals juga ah biar dapet vibe-nya. Tapi agak berbelok nih, yang ini tentang friendship goals dari film BlacKkKlansman yang (sayangnya) nggak tayang di Indonesia. Meskipun nggak tayang di Indonesia, filmnya tetep worth the watch kok. Sumpeh dah.
Buat kalian yang ngga kuat spoiler, you better click “Back” immediately.
Nah nah, buat yang gak mempan sama sepoiler atau mungkin udah nonton filmnya, berikut ini tim HPNG udah merangkum beberapa resep persahabatan a la Ron Stallworth (John David Washington) dan Flip Zimmerman (Adam Driver) yang patut dijadiin friendship goals. Mana tuh yang katanya real friend, BFF, atau bestie kalian, masuk kategori friendship goals nggak? WQWQWQ~
Mau menerima perbedaan
Ron emang “anak baru” di divisinya para detektif dan berkulit hitam, dan kali ini dia mendapat kasus untuk berhadapan langsung dengan petinggi Ku Klux Klan (KKK). Mengingat Ron-lah yang mendapat kasus ini, mau nggak mau dia yang menjadi Person in Charge (PIC) dan harus ngasih briefing buat Flip, seorang senior detektif Yahudi berkulit putih. Meskipun kita bisa melihat perbedaan warna kulit dan jabatan yang mereka emban, tapi Flip nggak begitu menggubris perbedaan itu dan malah berusaha untuk melaksanakan tugas dari Ron sebaik mungkin.
Percaya dengan satu sama lain
Salah satu hal tersulit dalam sebuah persahabatan adalah mempertahankan kepercayaan, setuju ngga? Contoh yang dapat kita ambil adalah saat Ron memercayakan Flip untuk memerankan Ron Stallworth berkulit putih, which that means, nama dan reputasi Ron dipertaruhkan. Sebaliknya, Flip juga percaya sama rencana yang dibuat sama Ron meskipun dia ngga tau gimana akhirnya nanti, karena Flip percaya kalau Ron knows what is he doing. Meskipun mereka berdebat dan kepercayaan masing-masing hampir runtuh, but the plan still goes on, right?
Dapat saling mengandalkan
Bahasa Sundanya sih “having each other’s back”, yaitu saat Flip hampir ketauan sama Felix (salah satu anggota KKK) kalau dia adalah seorang Jew (orang Yahudi), tapi digagalkan oleh Ron, inget ga tuh yang pas Ron ngelempar batu ke rumah Felix tepat sebelum Flip dites pake Jewish Detector? Setelah Ron kabur dan hampir ditembak pun Flip ngerebut pistol dari tangan Felix dan dengan sengaja melewatkan tembakan ke arah Ron. Kompak yaw!
Ada pengorbanan yang harus dilakukan agar suatu rencana dapat berjalan dengan lancar, bener ga bener ga? Kalau di film ini, karakter Flip-lah yang mengalah dan melakukan pengorbanan. Oh ya? Iya, soalnya Flip adalah seorang Jewish yang nggak rasis, tapi harus pura-pura jadi orang kulit putih yang rasis AF, bertentangan banget sama prinsip hidupnya kan? Meskipun tim HPNG belum nemuin adegan di mana Ron harus mengorbankan sesuatu, bukan berarti Ron ngga mau berkorban, cuma belom dapet panggung aja~
Nama kerennya adalah “take and give”, atau “pertukaran sosial” bahasa akademisnya. Contohnya begini, inget kan Ron pernah menggagalkan rencana Felix untuk ngetes Flip pake Jewish Detector? Nah, kali ini Flip lah yang berkesempatan menyelamatkan Ron, yaitu saat Ron dipukulin polisi karena dikira mau memperkosa si Connie, istrinya Felix. Sebuah persahabatan yang loyal bisa bertahan lama kalau keduabelah pihak bisa saling berbagi kebaikan, iyagaseh?
Itulah resep a la Ron dan Flip yang bisa kalian gunakan agar dapat meraih predikat friendship goals. Sekarang coba cek lagi, kalian punya temen yang masuk kategori friendship goals nggak? Atau orang yang selama ini kalian anggep bestie ternyata nggak masuk dalam alasan di atas? Tapi inget, hati-hati loh ya bedain friend-ship dan friend-zone, uwuwuw~~
Artikel ini sudah diunggah ke website Happening Films pada 7 Februari 2019.
Menjelang malam penghargaan Oscar yang diadakan pada bulan Februari nanti… Wait, masih bulan depan sih, tapi karena nominasinya udah mengguncang antero jagat maya, tim HPNG tergoda untuk ikut berkontribusi dalam kehebohan momentum Oscar ini.
Jadi gini, tim HPNG punya serangkaian judul film yang masuk nominasi Oscar 2019. Dari ratusan judul, masih banyak judul yang asing di telinga kita. Kenapa bioskop Indonesia nggak tayangin ya? (Mungkin karena bioskop Indonesia lebih doyan film action impor, hihi~)
Eits sabar sabar, nggak salah kok judulnya. Kalian yang udah nonton mungkin paham dengan judul artikel ini. Tapi jangan cemas, judul yang tertera di atas bukan keseluruhan spoiler kok, cuma “teaser spoiler”. Hehe.
As we all know, film ini sebenarnya mengisahkan David Kim (John Cho) yang telah ditinggal mati oleh istrinya, Pam (Sara Sohn), akibat menderita kanker darah. Setelah kehilangan sosok ibu di rumah, hubungan David dengan anaknya, Margot (Michelle La), terasa baik-baik saja hingga Margot tiba-tiba menghilang tanpa jejak dan hanya meninggalkan clue berupa 3 miscall saat tengah malam.
Keesokan harinya, David yang panik menelepon kepolisian setempat untuk segera melaporkan kehilangan anaknya. Selang beberapa waktu, seorang detektif bernama Rosemary Vick (Debra Messing) mengabarkan David bahwa dirinya merupakan detektif yang akan membantu David mencari Margot. Detektif Vick keukeuh nggak ngebolehin David terlalu melibatkan diri dalam pencarian (hmm).
Namun, demi membayar rasa penasaran, David tidak menggubris permintaan detektif Vick dan malah ‘mencari’ jati diri anak gadisnya dari laptop Margot yang tertinggal di dapur. Akhirnya, David mendapat berbagai jawaban mencengangakan (apa?!). Mulai dari percakapan Margot dengan pamannya, Peter (Joseph Lee), hingga transaksi sebesar $2500 ke pengguna tak dikenal melalui layanan transfer uang, Venmo.
Keunikan film indie yang tayang premier di Sundance Film Festival 2018 ini terletak pada cara penayangannya. Pasalnya, kita bisa melihat dari keseluruhan adegan film yang disajikan dalam layar monitor, baik layar laptop, HP, atau TV. Selain itu, ada sederetan aplikasi familiar yang ditampilkan, seperti YouTube, Tumblr, Facebook hingga Google Maps. Related banget deh sama teknologi yang sering kita pake saat ini.
Let’s go deeper.
Berbagai konflik yang ditampilkan secara konstan sepanjang film membuat para penontonnya tak dapat memperkirakan apa yang akan terjadi selanjutnya. Rangkaian kode juga terlihat muncul pada beberapa tampilan dalam film, seperti (SPOILER ALERT!) tayangan CCTV yang menunjukkan lokasi terakhir mobil Margot ternyata menunjukkan pesan lain, yaitu adanya mobil putih yang mengikuti. Nah makin kepo buat nonton nga nih? Ehe.
Keseluruhan petualangan kisah pengenalan ayah terhadap anak semata wayangnya ini tak akan hadir tanpa adanya konflik (yaiyala), yaitu penyebab hilangnya Margot yang ternyata akibat ambisi seorang ibu yang ingin menyelamatkan anaknya. Bener ga, bener ga?
Nah, intinya, kalian yang belum nonton, buruan nonton gih. Film ini udah memenangkan 2 penghargaan dari Sundance Film Festival loh, by the way. Tunggu apa lagi? Kuy download tonton filmnya!
Artikel ini sudah diunggah ke website Happening Films pada 21 Januari 2019.
Buat kalian yang udah tau ceritanya, pasti udah nggak asing lagi dengan makna judul film ini. Yap, Glass. Nah buat yang belom tau nih, Glass itu bukan film yang literally ngebahas tentang gelas ya, shay. Tapi sekuel dari film Unbreakable yang dirilis tahun 2001 dan Split yang muncul di deretan Now Showing bioskop sejak Februari 2017. Serangkaian film ini menceritakan kehidupan “super hero” yang diciptakan oleh si Mastermind.
Ibarat gelas yang masih sedikit terisi, kita nggak mendapat begitu banyak gambaran saat menonton kedua trailer yang diunggah Universal Pictures. Well, cukup menggoda sih untuk mengundang rasa penasaran, apalagi pas liat potongan akting James McAvoy yang as we all know memerankan banyak karakter dalam 1 tubuh. Ah, belom lagi si Samuel L. Jackson, sang Mastermind yang pas dapet pengarahan malah bengong se-bengong bengongnya. Bo.
Now, let’s get on track, nama Glass ditujukan pada Elijah Price (Samuel L. Jackson), si jenius yang menderita Osteogenesis Imperfecta, sebuah kelainan fisik di mana tubuh tidak mampu memproduksi protein tertentu sehingga tulangnya sangat rapuh. Duh duh, ironis banget gak sih pemikiran sekuat baja tapi fisik serentan kaca *uhuk*. Tapiii, justru si pemancing konflik inilah yang melahirkan karakter-karakter lain. Tambahan info, Elijah ini Mama’s Boy loh, unch!
Karakter kedua adalah David Dunn (Bruce Willis), si Guardian Angel yang selalu disalahpahami sama polisi karena penampilannya yang nggak meyakinkan. Bayangin aja, ngga peduli apapun cuacanya, dia selalu pake jas hujan ponco dong, gimana nggak disangka potential thief?! Nah, kemampuan spesial David Dunn sendiri adalah kekuatan fisik yang super kuat (bahkan dia nggak pernah sakit atau terluka) serta kemampuannya ‘merasakan’ kehidupan orang lain hanya dari sentuhan fisik. Kayak gini nih yang aku suka, peka! Eits tapi dia punya kekurangan juga gengs, trauma masa kecil saat Dunn hampir mati tenggelam membuatnya takut terhadap air, kayak Monkey D. Luffy gitu lah takutnya sama aer.
Si “super hero” terakhir adalah Kevin Wendell Crumb (James McAvoy), manusia dengan 24 kepribadian. Obviously kelebihannya adalah jumlah kepribadian yang dia miliki (wkwk nggak deng), kekuatan karakter yang satu ini ada pada The Beast (bukan pasangannya Belle loh ya) atau kepribadian ke-24 yang fisiknya kayak seekor binatang buas yang kelaparan. Ya meskipun spesial, tapi kehadirannya nggak diharapkan sih. Speaking of which, di sinilah tingkat profesionalitas James McAvoy sebagai aktor, setidaknya ada 5 peran berbeda yang ditunjukkan sekaligus dalam 1 adegan di film ini, wahwah awesome banget gak sih si Professor X kita ini.
Nah ketiga karakter ini akhirnya dipertemukan di seri film yang menurut sang sutradara nggak akan ada sekuel lanjutannya ini. Dari trailer yang udah muncul, seorang psikiater, Dr. Ellie Staple yang diperankan oleh Sarah Paulson, terlihat ingin meyakinkan mereka bahwa kecerdasan dan kekuatan mereka hanya imajinasi komik belaka. Tapi karena sesuai janji yakni tanpa menyertakan spoiler, I wouldn’t tell you akhir dari rencana Dr. Staple, bcs it’s not that easy, Fergusaw. The thing is, Sarah Paulson cukup terlihat ngeselin di sepanjang film. Haha kzl abis deh w.
Film arahan M. Night Shyamalan yang sekaligus menjadi pencipta ‘universe’ ini menjadi tontonan wajib buat kalian yang: (1) beneran kepo sama kelanjutan kisah film Unbreakable dan Split, (2) mau liat gabungan film drama dan thriller yang bersatu, (3) ikutan temen atau gebetan nonton aja, (4) pengen liat James McAvoy. Ya meskipun, for me, endingnya cukup mengecewakan. Kenapa mengecewakan? Ya makanya nonton, Jubaedah!
Selain serangkaian cerita yang terasa pilu untuk diresapi, ada juga beberapa adegan dengan cameo maupun non-cameo yang tiada disangka, misalnya kehadiran Joseph Dunn (Spencer Treat Clark), ituloh anaknya David Dunn yang dulu suportif banget sama kekuatan super papanya, terus ada juga kehadiran cameo si S******** yang tau-tau lagi bertransaksi sama Joseph (hayo transaksi apa nich? Tenang, bukan transaksi yang 80 juta itu kok. Wqwq~). Pokoknya nanti pas nonton Glass jangan lupa gengs…
Jangan sampe lupa…
Kalian sampe lupa…
Adios por ahora.
Artikel ini sudah diunggah ke website Happening Films pada 18 Januari 2019.